PMDD is a bitch. Two good weeks a month then those tell-tale cramps in the side another seed of life launched by a hopeful ovary but to me it signals the opposite and I start to look for the creep the slither the grey fog, red-rimmed like the pollution of a distant battle those firing …
Category: PMDD
Dear Mama with Mental Illness
Dear mama with mental illness, I see you. I am one of you. We are in this together. I know what it’s like on the days when mothering feels absolutely impossible. When the weight of the darkness is crushing and you want nothing so much as to stay in the oblivion of your bed, and …
The Monster, the Bully, and the Darkness
It's almost like a fairy tale. Once upon a time, there was a princess with a terrible curse upon her. Three weeks out of every month the princess lived an ordinary life. But the fourth week the princess turned into a terrible monster. I can remember when I was in college, engaged to Nate, and …
Broken Brains, Bait-and-Switch Jesus
Last week, my brain broke. It happened in the midst of an ordinary weekend, with my family around me. It wasn't a permanent break, nothing that cannot be mended (hopefully). But when it's your brain, even the tiniest fracture has the feeling of shattering. you are a failure you are failing your children your husband they …
Meredith Muddles 